A walk to remember

New Guy took this on our walk yesterday. Nice ey!

We have lift off.....

Well, kind of....

New Guy and I spent the afternoon together yesterday. We met up at the pub, and then we had food with some of the guys, then he suggested a walk, I was up for it but none of the guys were (conveniently). So we walked from that pub through some woodland, countryside area to another pub and then back again. We were alone together from 3pm - 8pm, real chat and getting to know each other time. It was excellent. No physical contact but he's text me today and I just feel happy.

I'm off to Cyprus Wednesday for a week with some of the guys New Guy isn't coming! But, I just am so glad we got some good time together before I go.

And what's more is it wasn't until 9pm that I even twigged that CD would have flown off yesterday. At 9pm he would have been in Ibiza. I was having so much fun with New Guy it hadn't even crossed my mind that that day was his leaving day.

I'm kind smiley and happy right now.

I don't know what's around the corner but I'm looking forward to finding out.

bacardi drinking tonight

I am sat at home with the bacardi tonight. It's not my usual Friday night, but Best Friend is away at a fancy hotel with her work, she won some kind of amazing bonus. Jerk Boy is off out on the town with his team at work, Intellect has gone to London for the weekend and my partying duo are doing their thang without me.

Anyhow, you would have noticed JerkBoy has been a bit quiet of late on this blog. He's still about but I guess we probably hit a bit of a tipping point a few weeks ago. It's not even that he's intentially backed away, it's just he's met a girl.

Yes you heard me right, he's met a girl on his team at work, and he's soooooo into her. He text me just this evening telling me he was playing footsie with her in the taxi on the way to their night out on the town. But as nothing is ever simple with JerkBoy this girl has a man. Yes who she's living with. JerkBoy has met the guy and has said "Gretta he's a good guy I don't want to mess her good relationship up" but that doesn't really seem to be stopping JerkBoy last weekend her bloke was away and he slept over her place (apparently there was another girl from work staying over as well). I just don't think it's too wise, but nor can I judge, bloody hell I slept with Flatmate and he's now married to the girl he was with when we were sleeping together.

Anyways, so he's completely obsessive about this girl, it's kind of cute, and I've met her and think she's lovely and I've told him that I wish she didn't have a guy so he'd have a girl he can be content and happy with. Unfortunately when it comes to JerkBoy and girls he's just not that stable.

Anyway back to my book and bacardi....

itching.

It's been a bit of a funny week. Everything within me has wanted to contact New Guy. The weather here is delicious, I could eat the sunshine. Ok that just sounds weird.

I was going to text New Guy and say "I'm planning on going for a walk tomorrow let me know if you want to come" problem is if he rejects me I won't be able to face him and I already know he's planning on joining the guys at the pub on Sunday evening.

So, I've decided not to text him, plus I promised myself I wanted him to chase me and he just doesn't seem to be doing it. Ahhh well. I'm off to Cyprus next week, so maybe after my week's holiday I'll come back and be ready for the full on chase, or I'll come back and not want to chase at all.

Who knows!

The girl did good....

I went to CDs leaving drinks last night.

I was acutally much more comfortable than I expected to be. New Guy was there, so he's back from working away, he came and chatted to me for ages, then he went and chatted to some of the lads, and I mingled and I definitely caught him looking at me on quite a few occasions.

It felt nice knowing that CD was leaving and in that very room was at least a potential.

I left early as planned and I braved it....

I hugged CD goodbye and I whispered in his ear "I'm at peace I have been for a while have a fantastic time".

It was what he needed to hear and it was what I needed to say.

He's the past, the future is most definitely brighter.

Now all I need is for New Guy to just be more clear.

My Conclusion Is...

That I just don't think New Guy is interested.

It's a real shame but I haven't heard anything from him and okay he was visiting his sister at the weekend, and he's possibly working away this week but he has my number, he could text me. The only reason I can think to why he hasn't been in touch is because he's just not interested.

I emailed him a response to one of his links he'd sent me, he hasn't replied to that and I emailed a group email about going to the pub tomorrow evening and he hasn't replied to that either. I know if he's working away potentially he wont have access to email, but still right now I'm feeling properly like he's just not interested.

yabber yabber.

I woke up at about 4am this morning with a hangover. At 4am I felt awful. I thought if I feel like this when I get up in a few hours time I am not going to work.

Then I woke up at 7.15am and felt fine, in fact better than fine I felt pretty darn good.

So I hopped out of bed, got ready, and left the house. Then realised I'd completely forgotten to eat breakfast. So I ate my lunch at 10am. Now I'm blooming ridiculously hungry adn egging 5pm to hurry up and arrive so I can go home and stuff my face.

Can't believe my hangover arrived early though... Can't believe the state of the previous blog.

In other news....

New Guy is pissing me off. So I took Scotty's great advice and replied to his email. I kept it short something like this..

"ha funny link but slightly scary!!!! how was your weekend?"

To which he hasn't replied, but he's been online because he's been on facebook. So, that annoys me if he's been on facebook he must have read his email. Anyway, I'm convinced he's working away again this week, which sucks because this 2 weeks with no communication is killing me, I'm a fast mover usually and it's just slowing down the whole process. Anyway, even though he's away I've sent a group email inviting peeps to the pub on Friday night and I included him... Yep still no reply, but a few of us are going.

Still don't want to go to CDs leaving drinks on Sunday, still going though, to show my face and to make sure there are no hard feelings, although I think there are always hard feelings between exs.

I keep telling myself just get to the end of this week and then CD will be out of your life for good.

I don't feel sad about that I just feel like I wish it would all hurry up and be over.

Oh and I'm considering getting a tattoo but I'm off to sun myself for a week in 2 weeks time and when I read up about new tattoos it says avoid sunbathing for the first month or so, so it'll have to wait for my return. It's gona be something I design myself and it will go on my foot. ROCK ON!

drunk drunk dugojgfdhgklajfkladsfasg

I am soooo drunk right nw and u;M Diubg ny ysal and not changing any of ny typing errors.

SO HWAT happened was I went out with this married coupek and I know and the huby decided to byy mm e ferings all night.

This wasn't oartuicularly funny becasuse by the end of the night he had us doing shot.s
Yes that's right shots oagf tabquila nad bacradrai and all over spirit.s.

So yeah Oam prtyy drunk right now.

Hmmmmm I think you can probalyt tell!!!


It's been along time since iVE THDRUNK this much. It's been along time since I ve'; done a drunk post too. you tknow the post where I pxnt vchnagem my errods.

this willb e funnr treaying in the morning for sure.

anyway snight you all I need sleeo and I;m tied votg to be able to do work today i MEN TOMORROW. well thanlfilly boss is on holdiuay with the family so if i'm hunglaver it wont be to big a dral forhoprfuly.

Waiting on the world to change.

In taking Scotty's advice I did reply to New Guy's email. Now I'm back waiting for a response. I hate this waiting game.

I haven't seen him for over a week anyway, because he was working away and then visiting his sister, he's working away again this week I think. This is like the slowest try and get to know someone in history of getting to know someone.

Feel like totally giving up.

And Scotty I'm not going to Australia. I should have stayed there when he asked me, even though I miss him at times that ship sailed a long time ago.

Missing My Teddy

Teddy emailed me a picture of the view from his apartment in Sydney.I'm soo jealous, I soooo miss him and now more than ever I want to gooooooo visit.

Only issue is I know if I go I might not want to come back and that's just not an option right now.

The end of an era.

CD has invited me to his leaving doo by email.

He's emailed me twice which gives me the impression he wants to be there, but going to someone's leaving doo kind of means you should talk to that person and as we're not really talking that seems a bit odd. At first I thought he'd invited me out of obligation, all our friends are on the invite, the polite thing to do would be to invite Gretta, but then the second email came the one that said "I hope to see you at my leaving doo".

It feels like he wants to make himself feel better before he goes, I feel like I should go to be seen to be doing the right thing. Thinking popping in for an hour would work, show my face, say hello and goodbye then leave.

I feel like I bent over backwards for that guy, and I feel like somehow I'm still bending over backwards for him.

Him leaving is the end of an era. I know that, unfortunately for me it was long, emotional, turbulent and painful era. Should I be the better person and let it go and wave him off regardless of how uncomfortable I might be or do I make a statement to him and everyone else and not go even though he's invited me..... twice.

Nothing since Tuesday

Then today 2 emails from the New Guy.

One was a reply about a link I sent him a week and a half ago it was just a link to something on youtube, and the second was a link to something on youtube.

Guess what...

I'm not going to reply, it's time for him to sweat it the way I have. Ha that will teach the sucker to play games.

Interested or not?

Still nothing from New Guy.

JerkBoy says it's all part of the game but I'm not feeling it. I've shown interest, if you're interested show interest back. If you don't I'm only going to assume you're not interested which is what I'm now doing.

The signals were there but now I'm wondering if they've rapidly diappeared.

1. He asked me if Jerkboy and I were item - trying to find out if I was single.
2. He aked for my number then text me to give me his.
3. He always sits next to me or near me when in the pub
4. He's tried being jokey with me.
5. He holds eye contact
6. He's asked some get to know me better questions
7. He told me he wouldn't be about because he was working away.

The signs are there. JerkBoy says from watching him he thinks he's interested. So why hasn't he replied to my text is it part of the game? has he gone off me? or did I just read the signals wrongly?

I've played the game with guys before and within 2 days they usually text, this guy I'm not sure I understand the rules with.

:(

New Guy hasn't replied. I wonder if I've been too full on.

Outrageous Flirt

I decided that it was time to get my outrageous flirting out of the bag.

Kind of funny but kind of not working.

So, New Guy is away with work this week. He is at a big executive conferency type thing and his charity have an exhibition table to drum up support. I text him to see how his first day went the conversation went a little like this...

Gretta: Heya, how did your first day on the exhibition go?

New Guy: It's ok, the days are long and I'm going to have to get creative to attract people to our exhibition.

Gretta: *Then texts Jerkboy* JB should I flirt outrageously or behave myself?

Jerkboy: Do what I would do.

Gretta: Flirt outrageously it is then

Gretta: *then texts New Guy* Flash that smile of yours at the ladies, that should attract some more attention.

Anyway, no reponse from New Guy after that....

Then Teddy has been emailing me over Easter. He's told me he's getting a go kart and wants to start racing again. So I told him that racing suited him - there's nothing like a handsome in control of something fast.

It's been a while since I've had my flirting groove on - it feels like it's coming back to me but it also feels a little bit one way at the moment.

Jealousy!

New guy flirted with another girl last night in front of me. I think he was absolutely blatent with it. I was jealous, and I hate the emotion. JerkBoy says he was probably doing it to make me jealous as he said he thinks New Guy is interested in me. I'm just not so sure. I don't like feeling jealous, he more likely to get my attention if he gives me his attention not if he starts flirting with another girl.

Odd!

Gretta doesn't do slow.

I am working it Gretta style and this guy still hasn't asked for alone time with me. I'm actually doing all of the tricks, everyone knows that Gretta has her flirting groove on, all my friends can see me working it but New Guy, New Guy isn't playing ball.

All I want is for him to ask for some time with me. I had a chat with him at the pub earlier, and he said "thanks for coming over and chatting it's good chatting with you and have a good rest of your afternoon".

Like what does that mean? Does it mean what he says? so if he likes chatting with me why hasn't he asked for alone time with me. I'm getting fed up of being watched by my friends, I'm now ready to get to know him in a more intimate setting, just the 2 of us so I can up the flirting without being watched. I'm ready, I've given him every signal, so if he doesn't asked he just must not be interested, but if that's the case can he stop being nice to me already!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Arrrgghh I just want the opportunity to get to know him - THAT'S IT!

oh new guy...

So, New Guy came to the curry last night. He was the first one there and I was the second and as we sat down at the table he said I was looking really nice.

He's lovely to me, I think he's interested now. However, even though he's nice to me, and I like him being nice to me and I kind of like that I still know he's pissed of my friends and his laugh is a bit odd.

Anyway, maybe he'll invite me out just him and me soon, and maybe when he does we'll figure each other out a little more.

put off by a laugh?

Yes.

New Guy laughed at the pub last night. Properly. And his laugh was not a good laugh at all. Am I this shallow. Yes I am.