Monday, March 28, 2011

Handsome P

I wrote about Handsome P in this post I was chatting to Handsome P on facebook yesterday and he said "Gretta you do realise we've never had a voice conversation?" I had realised but I'd not really paid much attention to this fact. We've been happily emailing and messaging each other via facebook since July but it's never felt like it was going anywhere and it kind of got comfortable. I liked it. He's met some of my friends which is odd because we haven't actually met and he liked my friends and they liked him. Anyway by the end of the discussion we exchanged number he said he'd call me today. I shouldn't be nervous I view this guy as a friend but I am nervous... I'm bricking it slightly. It's weird. I've got a day off today and I'm trying not to spend the whole day waiting for a phone call but it seems I don't have anything better to do - this is a sorry state of affairs....

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Buff Biker..

In this post I mentioned someone called Biker.

Biker and I seem to be spending an awful lot of time chatting on msn. To the point that I'm actually questioning what are online friendship actually is?

He lives in New Zealand. As far away as physically possible but something keeps drawing me back to this guy. I want to talk with him, I want to dream that distance won't be an issue even though I figure it is. He's so sweet and he's giving me heaps of attention and I'm really enjoying his company. To the point it scares me.

We met on a dating site and have I let myself be vulnerable with this guy because in my mind the distance makes him safe. I'm scared because I'm worried the distance is doing the exact opposite it could potentially take me out of my safety and to somewhere else entirely if I let it.

If. I. Let. It.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Does size matter?

I've never been one to worry about a man's size.

CD's wasn't huge, in fact I'm pretty sure it was on the small side. Well it was smaller than I'd ever experienced before. It gives me some pleasure in knowing that my next guy is highly likely going to be more blessed in that area but it didn't matter that it was small the sex was still good. In fact he did some awesome things with his hands and mouth. Ok I'm going off point.. Slightly.

I want sex, when I make scenarios in my head the penis is huge. Massive in fact. Unrealistically gigantic penis' enter me.

Size shouldn't matter but why in my sex dreams does it matter. Because it does. It really does.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Journeys

I read a number of blogs and some of the blogs I've been reading I've read for years. It's been fun reading about people's journeys.

One girl I met used to be just like me a city girl, slightly playful in her past yet wanting to settle. She met a guy, she settled, she got married and now on her blog she's just announced she's having a baby.

Hmmmm I'm still single.

I hope change come soon because I'm also so bored of playing. Plus I want something exciting to happen in my journey.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Organised Chaos!

My adorable Teddy hasn't been so adorable of late.

Yesterday I booked my tickets to Barcelona to meet him there in May after receiving this email

"Hi Gretta, I'll be arriving on the Friday lunch-time in Barcelona and then heading to Nice on the Monday. Just need to confirm a few things but that is locked in".

I assumed that this meant his flight was booked - arriving at lunch-time, he's already told me his friend has booked their accommodation. I went straight online and booked a flight - replied to the email saying I'd done so and now just need him to send me the accommdation details.

"Gretta you're too organised I haven't booked my flight yet but don't stress it's set in stone I'll be there".

My response

"not stressed just wish your german half would kick in the half that would get up at 5am to reserve a sun lounger your laid back aussie ways do my head in".

I've given up caring about whether he's gona be there or not I love Barcelona and I'll be more than happy pottering around on my own if he doesn't get his arse in gear.

I still feel sick....

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Sick

Since the first day in January I have been sick 3 times.

I once again have a stinking cold.

To be honest it's getting a bit boring.

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

Lent?

I figure since July men have just completely messed with my head and I'm fed of it. There's lots of guys who are willing to flirt and have a bit of fun but no guys that are up for commitment for the longer term.

I'm done with playing. I keep getting myself into situations I don't want to be in and I'm not even sure I'm actually keeping up with all the guys who want to text flirt, facebook flirt, online date flirt, msn flirt but actually when it comes to taking me out on an actual date just never get round to asking.

I haven't had a date since July and I want a guy who is willing to take me out on a date what's all this pissing around with online and phone flirting.

So, I'm taking a break. If a guy wants me he knows where to find me. No more chasing for Gretta starting from now. In fact it's going to be what I do for lent. My Christian friend tells me Christians give up things for lent to be like Jesus when he didn't eat for 40 days.

So for lent I'm giving up contacting men. If a man contacts me I'll reply but I will not make the initial contact or the first move for 40 days starting from.....

Well, it's suppose to be tomorrow but I'll start it today so this finished on Saturday 16th April.

BRING IT ON....

Thursday, March 03, 2011

Attention seeking men

So I have a pretty much whole month with absolutely no boy in sight. It was kind of nice then March starts and suddenly I have 4 guy possibilities. 4??? How the crap did that happen.

Guy 1: Well hot Pilot I met on the dating site. We've been chatting online since July, never met. I'll call him Hansome P (mainly because I used to have a different pilot on here). So Handsome P is about to get based on one of the canary isles. Coincidently I have some friends who moved out there so when Handsome P told me he was struggling to find an apartment out there I suggested he get in touch with my friends already out there. Next thing I know Handsome P is going out there next week and meeting up with MY friends. He hasn't even met me yet but he's told me once he gets an apartment I can go and visit him anytime. He's also told me he thinks I'm naturally pretty and doesn't like it when I wear make-up - he's never seen a picture of me without make-up on haha.

Guy 2: is hotstuff. He's visiting this weekend and wants to meet up with me. I don't know what to do he's a great guy but he kind of rejected me, I say kind of because he said he would date me if we lived in the same city but we don't so that's that. Now he's visiting and wants to meet?!? All on his terms one thinks.

Guy 3: is Biker. Biker lives in NZ which is as far away from me as you can get. But he's so interested he messages me ALL the time, he wants me to go over, he's forever talking about how he wants to woo me. He sounds desperate but he doesn't come across it he just comes across as a gentlemen and I'm really enjoying chatting to him.

and then there is guy 4...

Guy 4: My Teddy. Teddy's got a job which is great but his daily one liner emails have now turned into a much longer email once every few days. He still wants me to meet him in Barcelona and I still want to meet him in Barcelona. His email tones have changed, I can tell he's excited about the prospect of us seeing each other again. He knows as well as I do it's been 4 long years. Now he just needs to plan his trip so I can plan mine. We're meeting in the middle and I can't frigging wait.

But what this does do is freak me out slightly. Truth is nothing will come of any of these 4 guys, yet they all want my attention in some way or another and I'm just not sure I've got enough attention to go round. And what if I miss the opportunity with one when I'm giving attention to a different one.

I kind of prefered this time last month when my attention wasn't so craved.