losen up!

You may or maynot have noticed that it's been a while since I've mentioned Jerkboy on this blog.

There are 2 reasons for that...

1. being he now has a girlfriend
2. being he really pissed me off over New Year.

I get a text from Jerkboy this afternoon asking if I'm going to one of our friend's birthday meals and if I want a lift. I say yes to both and then say why don't you pop round a bit early for a catch. I mean I haven't seen him for ages and I really need to get over the whole New Year thing.

So he turns up and he's his usual charming self.

"Gretta I know you like this shirt so I'm wearing"
"Gretta did you notice I'm wearing the aftershave you bought me for Christmas"
"Gretta it's all for you, you know that don't you".

Right Jerkboy now tell me about how things are going with the GF.

All in all they seem to be very much the picture of happyness and I like her but she's asked him to be in a relationship with her on facebook and he's just left it pending. I asked him what's stopping him from accepting it and he said "well, it's freaked me out to be honest". I knew it... He's just like every other guy slightly afraid to commit to this girl.

Anyway, we went out for this birthday meal and after getting me he picked up his GF it was the second time I've met her and I do genuinely think she's lovely, she's pretty and bubbly and clearly they get on which is nice to see but they are so different.

I was beginning to notice silly little things like she won't eat chicken off the bone. Now don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with being a fussy eater or even a vegetarian but JerkBoy he loves his chicken and I just think if she's a meat eater what the heck is wrong with chicken off the bone. She hardly ate a thing and I could see JerkBoy encouraging her to eat more to which she said to him "you're such a feeder you are". Then she turned her nose up at fish and ok I'm chatting alot about food here but Jerkboy likes his food and I could tell her eating habits were frustrating him. There were also little instances where JerkBoy was being his normal cheeky self and if he said it to me I'd laugh it off but she was getting so offended and all I was thinking is he gets soooo much more cheeky then that you're really going to need to losen up girl.

I guess it kind of made me realise that maybe just maybe that's why he hasn't quite decided to accept her relationship request on facebook. To top it off I wasn't wearing an overly revealing top but I did have a little, discreet bit of cleavage on display and Jerkboy at one point couldn't take his eyes off of my boobs. HIS GF WAS SAT RIGHT NEXT TO HIM.

Thing is he's probably in perfect relationship heaven in his head, however from my opinion I saw cracks, definite cracks.

Seriously who wants a girl who is too self obsessed to enjoy food she even at one point said she wouldn't eat duck because it's too fatty and a duck is too cute to eat, to which me and Jerkboy both said at the same time "you don't eat duck?" almost in shock.

Time and time again I say it on paper me and Jerkboy make the perfect couple and maybe I am just a bit on the protective side when it comes to him. In reality we both know we would drive each other mad. Yet this girl, I don't know she maybe pretty and bubbly but on the flip side she really really needs to losen up because if she doesn't I can't see Jerkboy sticking around. And trust me regardless of whether or not he's ready to commit on facebook, if she does get him to commit he will be worth it and so much more.

Another step in the right direction

So, I found out today that CD is in a relationship.

I thought when this day came I'd be a bit of a mess to be honest. However, I'm not a mess I'm just pissed off that he got there first.

I hope him and his new girlfriend are very happy together. And I hope that I meet my man soon.

Oh boy Oh boy.

I asked Teddy if he was offended he said he wasn't and then he said funnily enough he had a lightbulb moment about his issues, his main issue being his work situation. In my eyes it's not even really an issue. He just doesn't have work at the moment, due to quitting, which ok is a bit of an issue but he's planning on traveling so it's not that big an issue really there is plenty of time to work.

Anyway I have to be so careful here, we've been in touch soooo much since December and I feel myself falling for him again, did I really ever have no feelings for him, probably not but that's not the point I feel my feelings getting stronger.

The worst part is if we actually spent a long length of time face to face instead of online communicating from zillions of miles away I probably wouldn't be interested at all. He's probably drive me mildly insane.

He's not really my type, I mean he's an engineer and his logic doesn't match my logic he wants boxes ticked and I don't give a stuff about boxes. I like to pre-plan and he's spontaneous to the extreme, he's got a lovely smile but drinks too much coffee so his teeth are beginning to slightly stain, he is balding (I quite like it, it makes him look mature and manly) but most women wouldn't dig the bald patch I'm sure and and he's hair (well I love hair too, in fact a hairy man really turns me on) hmmm we have lots in common as well though, we have similar political view points and we both like Rugby, Tennis and F1, when on skype we constantly laugh and he likes to daydream and we both love rum and rum based drinks and I'm suppose to be persuading myself not to like him.

It's hopeless.

You know some of his friends think he might be gay. He told me that and he was clearly upset in fact he's still single at 32 and most of his mates have settled down and you could tell he was disappointed by his tone that he hasn't settled down yet. Oh but I need to focus on the fact that his friends think he's gay. He's gay, he's gay...

Oh he's so NOT gay.

Still a moron

I'm still feeling like a total moron Teddy hasn't replied, I'm wondering if I offended him. You know I thought it wasn't so bad apart from the bit that I quite like this guy and I'm telling to get it on with a hot blonde. But that's not really it, if I gave him the impression his issues are insignificant then maybe I upset him, usually he would have replied by now. It's taking all of my strength not to message him and tell him I didn't mean to offend.

Silly Gretta. Silly Silly Gretta.

I am a moron.

I am a total moron, or at least I feel like one.

So, I'm in an email conversation with Teddy today and he happens to mention one of his mates was trying to set him up with a hot blonde but he's just not interested at the moment.

I asked him why he wasn't interested and that it surprised me that he wouldn't be - he said he had to get his issues sorted out first as he wouldn't want to load all of his issues on to someone else and why would I be surprised? and then this came out....

"everyone has issues Teddy and as I'm getting older I'm realising I have to more accepting of that. I understand the principle behind what you're saying (because I've been there) but they'll always be areas in our lives where we're insecure or that we struggle with. In fact I'm convinced these are your words that you gave to me not so long back. Would you really load 'issues' on to someone you're just getting to know? If you really feel you're not in the right place to pursue something then I completely understand I felt exactly the same way not so long back myself. You've got to do what's right for you. You know that, I know that. I just don't want you to miss an opportunity when you're trying to sort something out that might not be as big an issue as you think it is. That's all. Oh and the surprise part - since when do you pass up a hot blonde"

What the fuck am I doing I've liked this guy for I don't know how frigging long, he's coming over this year from Australia and here I am encouraging him to get it on with some hot blonde. Not only that but I've never known him to have been in a relationship with a blonde so as far as I know he passes up opportunities all the time. Why did I do that? WHY WHY WHY??

He's going to think I'm not interested in him when I am, I really really am.

We'll he get here

I've been in many email conversations this past few weeks with Teddy.

Trying to sort out things for when he visits but things are so dependent on his work it's just shockingly rubbish.

Anyways, I'm half hoping things are soon going to fall into place.

NOT HAPPY!

PANTS PANTS PANTS PANTS PANTS........

The Hunky Pilot (who is welllll out of my league) from the dating site found out that he's been put on base in Italy. His first choice was either my city or London. HE WAS TRYING TO GET MY CITY TO BE HIS BASE AND HE GOT BLOODY BASED IN ITALY. He said he almost cried when he heard the news, well so did I.........

PANTS PANTS PANTS PANTS PANTS......

Men Yey

I heard from datesite guy and he... he told me due to the snowy weather he had to get the train so didn't drive and thus not venturing through my city. I don't give a stuff I didn't reply to that message and I'm not going to he can go fuck himself.

Moving on...

I did hear from Teddy this Christmas and Teddy is coming to Europe in May and Teddy has invited me to Spain with him and I'm going to go. I don't know what that might bring but what I do know is that it's brough one big smile on my face at the beginning of 2011.

Also, a pilot I met on the dating site has told me he's in my city this month and I've said I'll meet up with him providing it's NOT a date - I'm off guys and he's off girls so this way they'll be no pressure.

Happy 2011 you all I know seeing Teddy this year will make mine particularly good.