An update for ya!

With Mr Tall out of my life I clearly don't have much to blog about - truth is I am not missing him much either. At the beginning things were great but since New Year it all became to messy and caused me to much stress so I am relieved that he wasn't that into me and I can now move on. Trouble is tho Mr Tall's Flatmate who I call Flatmate is still in contact with me and he's told me he thinks I am a hottie and that Mr Tall is an idiot for letting me slip through his fingers. He's basically given me the impression he's quite into me but he has a girlfriend. I've told him that I am not happy about him saying stuff like that to me when he has a girlfriend as if i were his girlfriend I wouldn't be happy but they're having loads of trouble in their relationship and he doesn't think it's going to last much longer. I am not sure if he's telling me all this for a reason but I just think he's wrong, he's got a girlfriend and he's flirting with me - why would I even contemplate someone like him! Silly boy.

I know too much..

I am back from my break and with a much clearer head you'll be pleased to know.

Mr Tall and I are over.

Flatmate and I are no longer being flirtatious.

Jerk Boy is dating someone and I thought I'd be upset when this day came but I am actually so not at all.

My someone invited me to his wedding but I am not gona go.

And yet still I have options. You may or may not remember Batman the player, well Batman the player seems to be settling down and the more settled he becomes the more interested in him I've become. I am not sure if he is interested in me but I am contemplating seeing if he wants to go for coffee next weekend. Ahhhh it's a time for moving on and I am feeling good. Sometimes a break is all you need to clear your head.

Down the pan

This week has been a funny old week.

I've only spoken to Mr Tall today and Wednesday usually we chat a lot more. I've been chatting to his flatmate a fair bit. Mr Tall seemed a little distant this week but he continued talking to me like normal so I assumed there wasn't a problem that was until he double booked his phone date with me. Yep he made plans during "our" time. I'd like to say I am shocked but I am not I have been expecting it for a while and truth be told shocked it didn't happen sooner. I was a little upset that it would have possibly been the last time we get to chat before I go away but he said he's come online for a msn convo the day before I go. I just think that when I get back it's going to be over and if it's not then I will probably end it. I shouldn't have even really let something so silly begin.

Oh and I upset Jerk Boy yesterday. He is busy on a Friday night in general and I am going to see a film. Well apparently he told me he wanted to see this film, and I forgot. So I invited our friends to come along but I knew he was busy so didn't invite him now he was like "if you had told me I would have gotten out of what I had planned and come but I can't now and you know I really wanted to see the film". Well whoops Jerk Boy I am terribly sorry about that. Anyway I text him today with times and said if your plans change come along and he sent me a sarcy text back. I don't know there is no pleasing some people.

OH GOD I am gona go back to being single again.

He hugged me like a Teddy Bear

Have you ever met someone that has renewed your confidence in mankind?

I did the day I met Teddy. I am sure I've probably written about Teddy before somewhere on this blog but if I haven't this is how the story goes.

During 2005 I did some traveling. I being the mad person I am decided to go and "find myself" as some people call it. My aim wasn't really to "find myself " yet I'd never traveled alone before and it was a challenge I'd decided to set myself. So off I wondered all over the place.

While travelling I met Teddy. Teddy and I'd met online previously to travelling I met him through a site and it just so happened he shared some of my passions. I finally met him, face to face, on a day that I was missing home, in fact it was a day I was really home sick and missing friends and family. Now don't get me wrong I met people daily in the hostels, but that for me was the problem. You see I was trying to squeeze so much into the little time I had I never really got past the whole initial small talk thing and because of that I felt so lonely.

The day I met Teddy was amazing he traveled 4 hours to come and catch up with me, and when he turned up I felt like I didn't have to be making small talk I could be me completely. We recognised each other instantaneously from the photos and when we hugged there was no awkwardness we ust held each other tight as if we were seperated lovers catching up again.

During those 2 days Teddy showed more chilvary than I'd ever experienced. He wouldn't let me pay for a thing which although was very nice was also very hard for me to accept. He made sure that when we were walking down the street I was on the inside away from the road, he'd offer to carry my bag for me, he'd pull out the chair for me before sitting down and eating, he was purely caring in every sense of the word. He even bought me a gift as a reminder of the time we spent together. If that wasn't enough on those days I laughed so hard, he made me smile so widely and he was also quite pleasing on the eye so that wasn't bad either ;).

Some may say I was a little naive back then, meeting some guy I'd only spoken to online, in a differnet country, but the truth is he didn't lay an innaporiate finger on me. He was a gentleman in every ounce of the word.

After I returned from my trip we emailed each other a few times, and text every now and then but soon enough we lost contact (which is actually quite funny because before I met him we'd not spoken online for a few months). Even though I tried to get back in touch whith him via email he didn't respond and I soon assumed that I'd never hear from him again and that brief short time we shared together was something that I was suppose to remember while smiling and not worry about never hearing from him again.

That was until Christmas Eve when out of the blue I received a text from him. I responded and thought ahh I probably wont hear from him again!!! I was wrong on New Years Eve I received a text from him, to which I replied and then he replied. This was strange after just over 8 months of no contact me and Teddy seemed to be in touch again. This was craziness so I couldn't help but want to text him a general text with no agenda to see if he'd reply or whether he was only in touch to wish me a happy Christmas and New Year. He replied to my general text and I can hardly believe it.

The man who showed me by his actions that there are some men in the world that will go beyond your expectations and go that extra mile for you was back in contact with me and that same wide smile I had when in his company reappeared on my face. Even if this is just one of those moments that soon will be gone, there is no way I am going to forget my Teddy Bear.

Hinting...

... It really does seem that I am right when I say hinting to men works.

So, Mr Tall and I had our phone date and all is well and good so I should be happy right? Yet I am not the distance is finally taking it's toll and I just don't think this "thing" is going to last much longer.

Yet back to the hinting working so I hinted that Mr Tall leave me a message on my myspace and he left me a message on my myspace. I hinted that Mr Tall get a webcam so we could have online video calls and Mr Tall is looking into getting a webcam, so if I had hinted Mr Tall it would be great to hear from you over new years I am convinced he would have contacted me.

But why do guys need to be hinted at before they do something? I just don't get it.

I think about men too much.

I haven't approached the subject with Mr Tall and I am thinking I am just gona let it slide now. We were back to our usual flirtatious selves yesterday and we booked in our phone date for Friday night. So, I think the time has now passed and my anger has resided for the time being but next time I want him to contact me I am going to hint to him. It seems that if I make hints to him he usually gets them so maybe it was my fault for not mentioning to him in the first place that it would have been nice to hear from him over the new year. It still doesn't help the no reply to my myspace message but then again it's not the end of the world either we are back in contact and full swing now.

Slightly Pear Shaped....

... Yeah slighty.

So Mr Tall is home and we chatted on msn today. It was certainly different mainly because I was still slightly pissed about that fact that he has made no contact over New Year but then he did say he's missed me. He's also done his neck in and is in a neck brace bu being in a neck brace doesn't stop you from contacting does it? Anyhow, work was so hectic as it is the first day back that I actually didn't have it in me to start a msn row. So if he is online tomorrow I may just say something like

"I'm confused if you missed me like you said you did - how come you didn't reply to my myspace message or how come you didn't text?" I don't want to seem so full on but really I don't get it?

I am assuming now he's back normality returns and we'll be having our phone date on Friday altho I guess I should check. Before he went away things were going so good now I am just not so sure anymore. It doesn't help that when thinking about what I did with my time off work during Christmas I realised that I saw Jerk Boy everyday. Todayin fact is going to be the frist day in 11days that I wont see him however, we have text and had a phone conversation. I guess that I am just all in a tizz about everything.

Oh and guess what Bouncer wasn't at the New Year's Party he came down ill on the morning and couldn't make it. I text him to say "What a great start to the new year you're having" and he replied saying that he didn't have his party face on as it was all swollen and nasty. New Years was fun but it was better last year.

Anyway, I really am gona try and approach the subject with Mr Tall tomorrow. That's if he's online. oh man it's just not the same.