Sunday, April 29, 2007

Never a dull moment in Gretta's world

I ended things with Flatmate on Friday. It was actually ok, he asked me outright if I was bored of us and I replied saying that I am not bored but.... I really do think I have to come back to reality, and reality is, you are with Gifty. It's been the best dream I've ever had but I am beginning to see it for what it is. A dream.

He completely understood and asked if we could remain friends to which I said I don't think we can be just friends, we've tried that before and it didn't work.

On Friday night I was pretty teary, I was at home with a bottle of wine, and a chick flick, and I just got all a bit emotional so I text him again affirming what I'd already told him saying; honestly, I wasn't one bit bored, I just woke up from the best dream I've ever had, I wish I could go back to sleep but I can't I have to face reality... I'm sorry.

He replied on Saturday saying "It was a great dream, you have nothing to be sorry for, please don't harden your heart".

It meant a lot to me and now I feel as if I am probably not going to speak to either Flatmate or Mr Tall again. It has been a tough weekend at times I have been a little teary but I am a survivor and I'll survive.

Teddy has been in touch, he's sorting out My Someone's wedding gift for me. Teddy who I speak to so infrequently it's unbelieveable has a habit of popping up when I need him the most, and it's been great having him call me up and this last week! I can't wait until the end of July when he comes to visit.

My someone gets married next weekend, it's crazy to think that only a few years ago I imagined marrying him, it's crazy to think that now I couldn't even contemplate marrying him. I am so happy he's happy and maybe also a little envious.

As for work... Ooooohhh work, things have been majorly hectic, end of finance year and all has made the office seem completely busy, however, next week i am sure I'll be thankful for the busyness as it will keep my mind of Flatmate. As for my social life it's as hectic as ever and I am sure it wont be long before a new or old persuit turns up. There is one thing I can say about my life and love lift, it's never dull.

Friday, April 20, 2007

indecisive or just plain dumb?

I don't know why my life has to be so complicated at times but I am seriously considering ending things with Flatmate! He seems to moan a lot about his girlfriend but he seems to be all talk no action and I just can't take much more of it. The annoying thing is when we chat I just get sucked right back in and I forget that I was even contemplating ending it. I just wish I could make my decision and stick to it. Grrrr.

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Off on my hols.

It's been an awfully strange week! I have had so many ups and downs with flatmate that it's been pretty unbelievable, the making up part is especially fun tho.

As for other stuff in my life, lots of family crap happening and I'd just rather be out of here for a while, which is lucky because I've booked a holiday and I am offty for a week. So I'll give you the latest when I get back. Oh and it's offty with Jerk Boy too, so it will be an interesting holiday!