Sunday, August 29, 2010

Stuff ups

Things have been a bit crazy, well actually a lot crazy lately.

Jerkboy stuffed things up big time in his department in work, he hasn't been sacked but he has been demoted. Thankfully he's been situated at other offices for quite a while now, so I wasn't dragged into his antics.

It's a long story but basically he thinks what he did was acceptable but the bosses don't and said that it risked the companies reputation. I personally think the bosses have previously made stuff ups but they seem to be ignoring this fact.

Anyhow, he said he'll probably look for a new job now, which upsets me no end.

Things with his girlfriend are going well, I hardly see him outside of work anymore let alone at work since he changed departments so I kind am used to not missing his face.

It's bank holiday monday tomorrow - so I've been enjoying the beverages this evening and I'm probably gona go out on a day trip tomorrow with New Guy.

Things are crazy mad but also kind of normal.

Friday, August 13, 2010

Down

I hadn't heard from my Teddy for a few months. It's not unusual with him living in Australia and me in the UK. Anyway, I was beginning to think it has been too long so I sent him a text asking if he'd be up for a catch up on skype soon. Nothing odd about that occasionally he'll text me that, and I'll text him that, it's just how our friendship has worked with distance over the years.

Then I find out he's actually in Germany helping with the family farm. I find this all a bit shocking that he's in europe and just didn't think to mention it. So, I text him and ask if he's planning a visit to the UK or would he have time to spend with me if I hop on a flight to Germany and Teddy who has never previously turned me down, who I wouldn't even think knows how to say no to me.

Says: Gretta you know I'd love to catch up with you but I'm here to work, I'm working 12 hour days on the farm, and next week I'm heading back to Australia. If I thought it was possible we'd meet up I would have arranged it. If things change I'll call you but I'm working dog hard.

It was a bit of a shock the old system.

Jerkboy and I have been less and less in contact too. Since he's been in this relationship me and him it's just not the same and deep down I know it can't be the same but it's like I don't matter to him anymore and I guess I was always used to being his favourite girl and now, well now I'm not.

There's absolutely no romantic prospect in my life at the moment. I guess I should be happy about that, it's just I'm not. I want to fall in love but I'm beginning to question whether it's something I'm capable of!