A weekend with Teddy

Sooo I finally got to spend a whole weekend with Teddy and to be quite frank... He's no longer the man for me. He still showed strong signs of being that man I cared so much for so many years ago but I don't know the spark was gone. gone. gone.

I still have more respect for him than any man I've ever met, he still looked after me, he still showed chilvalry, he still bought me presents and meals and was a true gentleman. But something was missing and that was romance.

In my eyes he's naturally turned into a friend that I have an enormous amount of respect for but wont be more than that. The main reason being I need a man who's not afraid to touch his food. Who doesn't big him self up in a pouncey way and who doesn't say to me "with age comes selfishness"that's not what I want I want a man who says "with age I've learned to be less selfish"

He's no longer what I want and that can only be a very good thing.

Things I could have done without hearing today

"So Gretta I don't know if you spent much time with CD when he was at the pub the other month but he's really changed he's so chilled out now and everyone's saying he's a much nicer person and really treating his new girlfriend so well"

I'm sorry are you my friend? really my friend? You think I want to hear how great my ex is doing. No not really thanks but I am glad he's doing well. And funnily enough no I didn't spend time with him at the pub in fact I left purposely to avoid him.

"You still live with your parents you must really like your parents"

Actually I lived in a beautiful little flat but the landlord wanted it back and I realised my cheapest option was to move back home. I have heaps of disposable cash and I'm saving for when I do meet someone and um yeah I do get on really well with my parents.... Result I'd say.

An Ode to CD...

I saw the potential in you and what you could be
But you weren't that person when you were with me

I could see how great that you might be
But you weren't that person when you were with me

I supported your dreams, your visions and what you could see
But you didn't want to reach them when you were with me

I let go of you and set you free
So you could be the person you were meant to be

The person you just weren't able to be
When you were with me

I'm glad that your happy and your dreams are coming true
I hope one day I'll be just as happy with some new
with someone who can be who they're meant to be
Someone who will be happy and able to share dreams with me.

FUN?

Biker has gone to the states for a 3 week holiday which means he's not online.

When I was online I didn't miss him which made me think that I'm not that bothered by him. But I kind of miss him now. Hes always online, maybe he needs to get a life but now he's the one disappearing I'm not so keen on that.

Bumped into Mr Tall this mornign and I didn't ask about Flatmate.. Actually we had a really good chat mainly about the dates he's been on lately and the lack of dates I've been on lately. He's a good guy really is Mr Tall.

I'm putting off jobs at the moment I have so many boring jobs on my to do list that I don't want to do it's unbelieveable!!!

WANT SOMETHING FUN TO DO!

When did JerkBoy get hot?

Caught up with JerkBoy this weekend and it was soo good it's been ages since we've caught up just the 2 of us.

He was looking hot too. I can't say Jerkboy and hot are two words I put together that often but he's started boxing training and his arms. OH MY GOD!!!!! His arms have well bulked out.

Suddenly I think his girlfriend is a very lucky girl but then again I kind of thought that anyway.

Thankfully, the thought of dating Jerkboy now makes me cringe because he's like a borther to me.

If he wasn't like a brother ot me.. I'd probably want to shag his brains out.

16 days and counting

My weekend with Teddy is edging ever closer. He's finally communicated with me and we've got A meeting venue and time sorted. Part of me can't wait to see him, part of me is already dreading the goodbye. One weekend in 4 years is not long enough or enough time. FACT! But I'm going to embrace it as best I can.