Tuesday, April 29, 2008

round in circles!

Once again I find myself in a very similar predicament, as the last 6 months! What a shocker!!! Or not!


Over the weekend I went training with the group of people Climber Dude is leading on the 3 Peaks Challenge. They’re all really cool, but there is one girl who I am slightly weary of. Actually she seems lovely and we really get on, but my main fear is if she hits on Climber Dude, she’s very active, she does lots of the same stuff as him, they seem to have a heap in common. The heap in common thing is something I’ve always felt was missing between Climber Dude and myself but I definitely felt that green eyes monster rearing his head.


So, anyway, all of the guys the older guys, loved me! Funny thing was Climber Dude noticed that too. So I don’t think it was just my Green Eyed Monster coming out to play. You see I have a way with the older man, I’ve never really understood what it is about me but I get more compliments from men in their 40s and 50s then I do men in their 20s. I think they see something in my that guys my age don’t see. Anyhow, Climber Dude mentioned how I used that to my advantage, getting them to talk to me and help me along the walk – toooooo darn right!! That’s what I say. They are all trying to talk me into doing the 3 Peaks Challenge now, and the scary thing is, I am actually extremely tempted. I thoroughly enjoyed the whole weekend. I met Climber Dude’s folks as well which was actually quite cool too.
I went in hospital on Monday for some more tests and to cut the story short I was in far too much pain for them to be able to carry out the tests, so now it looks like they want to send me for some muscle cutting operation, so I guess whether or not I do the 3 peaks will be partly dependent on this operation.


Climber Dude popped round for half an hour this evening before going off to play squash, he brought chocolate with him, he seems to know me know me well. He asked what I was doing tomorrow night and whether I wanted to do dinner, but it turns out he doesn’t finish work until 7, so it looks like I’ll be cooking that dinner then. Thinking I’m going to do a curry.


Yeah so that’s the predicament really – I have no idea what the deal is with me and Climber Dude but to be honest right now I’m just gona go with it!

Friday, April 25, 2008

Don't you just hate....

...Doing a number 2 at work?

I do.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

6 quirks or things about me!!! Got from Scotty's blog.

1. I can't go to bed if I know there is washing up to be done. This habit I picked up from my mother and although I am not the tidiest of people in the bedroom, I can not go to bed if I know there is a messy kitchen downstairs. There has been 1 occasion when The Ex tried to persuade me to go to bed and clear up the mess in the morning but as soon as he fell asleep I creeped downstairs and cleared up.

2. After doing a number 2 I flush the loo twice. I can't just flush the loo once. For some reason. I know it's a complete waste of water, it's bad for the environment, there is no reason to flush it twice, but I just can't help it.

3. I hate being cold. I hate it more than anything else that I can think of. I can sit by a fire for hours while everyone else in the room is sat in t-shirts, I can have the heater in my car full go while everyone else in the car is boiling hot. I just hate being cold.

4. I always aim to be on time but usually I end up 5 minutes early. I am rarely late. I wont say never because if someone else drives then I'll be late because of them.

5. I can't go to a beach without dancing on it. If I'm on a beach, no matter the weather, no matter how many people are around, no matter how foolish I look, I just have to dance.

6. I don't have any regrets. Even the things in my past that I'm not proud of I view as learning curves. I don't regret a single thing!

I worry about a lot of things...

.. but mostly about myself.

Friday night. After my blip I calmed myself down and told Jerk Boy I really needed some company he ended up coming round, I cuddled up to him and we watched stand up comedians on youtube all night.

FUNNY.... We were both belly laughing hard. It was great and just what I needed a cuddle and a laugh.

Saturday Evening Climber Dude got home from his mountain climbing holiday, and he invited me round. So I went over his and just hung out with him watching films, no cuddling but I really have missed him that last week. Today I was going to my parents for Sunday lunch and I text Climber Dude to see if he wanted to come with me. He did so we went to my parents for lunch. My dad thinks Climber Dude is the bees knees. So does my mum. LOL great. Maybe that wasn't the wisest of moves.

Anyway, I'm back home for a few hours now and then later I'm meeting up with Climber Dude and some other friends. So yeah turns out I'm not so lonely afterall!

Friday, April 18, 2008

Little Blip

I'm lonely.

Lonely enough to sit at home crying and drinking rum.

What the heck is wrong with me?

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Cup of Tea and a choccy biccy with Gretta

It’s the usual dead Thursday.

No one is in the office bar me today, we have some builders downstairs doing up the kitchen area but other than that, the office is dead.

So, lets fill you in on some of the events I’ve got coming up...

The last weekend in April I’m going mountain training in Wales. Should be ok, going with this group of people that are doing the 3 peaks in June. I’m still just doing the 1 peak but think that training will be essential – even if I am just doing the smallest mountain of the 3.

In May, The Ex is getting married, a group of us are going down South for the wedding. Climber Dude is a groomsman so he’ll be there, and best friend, best friend’s hubby and intellect are all going. Jerk Boy didn’t get an invite but he doesn’t know The Ex very well. I was a bit shocked I got an invite as The Ex’s future wife doesn’t really like me that much. I blame The Ex for that because I know that he has used me purposely in the past to make her jealous, so needless to say she has not reason to like me. But still I got an invite. The thing about The Ex is that we were good friend for 5 years before we started dating, then we had a very on off relationship for 3 years, and then we went back to being friends after that. Even though I can’t say our relationship was great we caused a lot of hurt to each other, but the fact we overcame and we remained friend. I’m kind of touched to have an invite. However it does mean that all of my serious boyfriends form the past come June will be married. What does that say about me, that the guys I went out with do want to settle down but not with me, or maybe they did want to with me but I was afraid to commit! I don’t really know what it means in all honesty.

In June I am going to go and climb a mountain. This is actually nothing to do with Climber Dude, although he’s a guide leader for the 3 peaks, and although he’s the one that invited me to do it. I set goals at the beginning of the year and one of my goals was to walk more. So doing this mountain and committing to the training just means, that I am reaching a personal goal I set.

In July Teddy is in the UK for 3 days I found this out yesterday when he emailed me. 3 days is rubbish what am I suppose to do with 3 days. He has a wedding to attend one of those days too, and although most of me wants him to say “Gretta come to the wedding as my plus one” and half of me knows he’s probably considered inviting me, the other part of me knows that all of his old school mates are going to be at this wedding, some of which he hasn’t seen for years. If I went he’d feel obliged to check I was ok, and you know what I actually want him to spend time with his friends that he hasn’t seen for ages. Although I do want to see him at some point over that 3 days if I don’t I’ll be devastated.

The last bit of news is that I have a married couple that I am friends with, actually they were kind of like second parents when I grew up. Long story I had the biggest crush on this lady’s son and her son used to invite me round lots, and we were friends, but for some reason he never seemed to want to be anything more than my friend and it turned out that I spent more time chatting to his mum and step dad then him. It was all a little odd situation, but soon I found his mum and step dad inviting me round for tea, and hanging out watching films on a Friday night, and we just became friends. I think they would have loved me to have dated her son, but her son just wasn’t bothered. Anyway how, second mum and step dad moved to Lanzarote with their 2 younger children and at Christmas they came back and I saw them while they were here and they told me off for not visiting them as yet. I felt back because they were so good to me while I was growing up. So, I’ve emailed htem and said I am going to try and book a flight in September and go and spend a week with them. Result a week in the sun just before the English winter kicks in.

So things are pretty busy in my world over the next few months, a few things to look forward to and embrace.

I’ll keep you posted. But for now I should get back to work.

Monday, April 14, 2008

I hate hospitals

Best Friend was rushed into hospital late last night, she seems to have picked up either a rather crazy infection or a minor disease in The Gambia. The docs have ruled out Malaria - THANK GOD.

So, I asked the boss if I could leave early today I had to be back in work at 7.30pm for a meeting anyway and thought I was owed a fair few hours, he kindly agreed and me and Jerk Boy toddled off to the hospital to visit Best Friend.

She was in good spirits considering just bored out of her brain. Bless.. I hate hospitals. So I appreciate how she feels. They want to run more tests on her because she still has no diagnoses.

As for work the meeting was dull but essential. Thinking about looking for something new, but I feel so loyal to the boss these days that I may actually tell him that I'm considering looking elsewehre.

Climber Dude has gone climbing mountains somewhere for the week but I've kept him updated via text about Best Friend's condition. He cares. Even though he acts like the biggest arse hole at times, he does care.

Right back to the bacardi.

see ya x

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Wants cuddles from a Teddy

Teddy rang me yesterday he left me a voicemail it was great to hear from him, I love the sound of his voice, I forget how much that boy makes my heart flutter. God I miss him.

Anyhow in other news I had Jerk Boy almost in tears on the phone this morning. He has constant girl trouble he has been "in love" with a friend of his for a good couple of years, but this girl just doesn't want him. I feel for him because he's been so persistent and still she doesn't want a bar of him. He's pulling his hair out he sounded so low when he was talking to me this morning. I just wanted to reach down the phone and stroke his hair.

By the way I wrote out a whole massive Gambia update and bloody blogger managed to lose it. So, until I can be bothered to write it out again you'll have to wait for the update.

Catch yaz

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Goodnight Sweetheart Goodnight.

I don't want to write about Gambia just yet, and I'm not really sure why that is. I have so many stories to tell and I had an absolutely wonderful time, yet I don't feel in the frame of mind to share.

What I want to share is that on my return Jerk Boy told me he had missed me. We hadn't really spend much time together before I went and while there although I wasn't "missing" him as I was having too much fun, everytime a text came through I knew, I knew it was Jerk Boy wanting to make sure that I didn't forget him. He's so transparent sometimes.

I want to tell you that Flatmate is online as we speak first time in months, I can see him there on my msn list, I keep hovering the cursor over his name just to then stop myself from starting a conversation with him. I've been doing so well, I don't really even understand why he's online, he should be with Gifty. I just don't want to hear from him ever again.

Then there is Teddy, I'm having the same problem, I keep picking up my phone and writing texts and then deleting them. I feel so indecisive it's un fucking believable.

The Gambia was good, I miss the sunshine already and have been looking for cheap flights to Lanzarote. Think I want to go there at the end of summer to get some more sun and heat in my bones before hte long cold winter.

Right it's late. I should sleep.