Into me? Into him?

To say I'm slowly falling for New Guy would be an understatement. I think I'm falling fast. I don't know what happened to him protecting his emotions but since last weekend we've been in contact every day bar Monday.

Yesterday he went to London to see a John Mayer concert. I was at the local with a girlfriend (in fact talking about New Guy) when I get a text

"you wana hear some?"

Next thing I know New Guy is on the phone and I'm listening to a very muffled John Mayer encore.

We're not even an item and he's ringing me from a concert so I can hear it too. Truth be told I think we're both getting in deep.

Anyhow, this walk on BH Monday should be interesting.

Text conversation - finally.....

Last night at approximately 8pm this happened.

*Text comes through*

New Guy: What are you up to over the bank holiday weekend? I'm thinking a day of settlers ;)

(Settlers was a game he made us play at the bbq).

Gretta: I'm busy Sat and Sun but I'm free on the BH Mon. Although I'm not sure I'm nerdy enough for a whole day session of Settlers - unlike some ;)

New Guy: I thought you liked it? Seriously though if you fancy a walk somewhere and an explore on Monday then I'd be keen?

Gretta: I did like it, just not enough to play it all day. Yeah I'd be up for a walk somewhere on Monday - sounds good.

New Guy: Well if you have any ideas on where to go walking let me know. I'm looking forward to it.

So, there we have it. We're going for a walk together on BH Monday, I'm pretty sure it's just me and him unless he invites someone else or I invite someone else. I obviously don't think either of us are going to invite anyone else, but you never do know when the text conversation was pretty elusive.

I mean why can't he just say "Gretta would you like to come out with me over the BH weekend?" that way it's clear would you like to go with me, not me and a group. And he actually asks me straight out rather than trying to figure out if I already have plans or not. He's not the only one who's gone about it that way either, lots of guys seem to not be able to ask a girl out outright they seem to beat around the bush a fair bit. I guess it's a guy thing but it leaves the girl confused, you see he could potentially invite other people on this walk and that would be perfectly acceptable he hasn't given me any hint that it's going to be an exclusive walk but I'm assuming it is, but what if I turn up and there's a whole crowd ey.

Going somewhere not sure where

So by the end of Saturday I was totally smitting with New Guy. We had half an hour alone time in the car and we spent the whole day with a group of people and it was a great day, had a great time. On Sunday he invited me, JerkBoy and some other friends round to his and his housemate's for a BBQ and again a great time was had.

I'm really beginning to like New Guy a lot or I'm really enjoying spending time with him. He is making me feel things and I'm not sure he realises he's doing it.

He's so nice to me and I'm just not used to it but at the same time I like it. I like the feelings, I like the niceness, I like him.

My life is not on hold

So New Guy and I had a text conversation yesterday, I couldn't resist emailing him today to which he replied almost straight away and I'll be seeing him (and a load of others tomorrow). I'm not really sure where it's heading but it feels like it's heading somewhere.

Unfortunately I've heard from CD today. He emailed me from Ibiza. He's fine, I don't think he had any point for the email just to email. I still get mad at him at times I still feel sooooo lied to in so many ways.

New Guy is so open that it's refreshing. I kind of wish New Guy hasn't been crushed by his past relationship because if he hadn't he would be the perfect guy to move on to without worrying about hurting him but I don't want to end up hurting him so if something happens with him I've got to be sure which means.... No playing games for Gretta. Guess it will make a change.

I had a skype convo with Teddy in Oz yesterday, he's threatening coming to visit but I don't see it happening any time soon. Kind of glad because if I knew he was visiting my life would go on hold and that can't happen anymore.

So much for wreckless abandon.

New Guy text me this morning saying he had a great afternoon on Sunday and is looking forward to this Saturday, when a group of us are going out for a walk.

I am now beginning to feel the need to protect my emotions. If he'd never mentioned protecting bloody emotions I wouldn't be protecting mine but now suddenly I feel like I want to slow things down, and things aren't even fast!!!!!!!

I can't believe that my relationship with CD. CD who is in Ibiza now not even here, is still affecting my potential new relationship options. I don't want it too. I laid my cards on the table. New Guy told me he was out of a serious relationship in October and I told him the same that I too came out of a serious relationship in October. I wasn't think that fact would cause us to become over protective of our emotions. I was more than willing to be (in fact) emotionally wreckless until he mentioned he was protecting his emotions due to the fact we both were in serious relationships. But they ended 7 months ago. 7 months ago, should we really be protecting emotions now?

One of my friends says he's being sensible and in the process protecting me. I don't feel protected if anything his little spiel about protecting emotions has caused me to become more afraid than before.

BLOODY HELL!

Non Mixed Signals....

Finally the mixed signals are making some sense.

So, yesterday we went for the walk. Turned out to be quite a good turn out, best friend and her hubby, Mr T, The Ex (from ages ago) and The Ex's wife, and New Guy.

It was a great walk ended up a little of track and doing an extra 2 miles turning it into a 9mile walk but it was great to get out in the country.

Mr T and New Guy came back to mine which was good and then this morning I sent New Guy, Mr T and Jerkboy all a message saying they're welcome to come to mine to watch the Monaco Formula 1 race.

New Guy rang me and it went a little like this.

New Guy: I want to come but I don't want it to seem over the top.

Gretta: Over the top? I've invited Mr T and Jerkboy as well. It's up to you if you want to come, come if you don't, don't,

New Guy: I do want to come but I'm gona have some food first.

Anyways Mr T couldn't come but Jerkboy did. However, during the race I got a text from New Guy saying this

"I'm sorry I feel a right idiot saying that. I didn't mean anything by it. I guess I'm just very aware that we've both come out of serious relationships. I am sorry I didn't need to say anything I am just being over protective of my emotions. Hope that makes sense and I haven't embarrassed you as much as I feel embarrassed right now".

I didn't really get the text then, I was just going to brush over the a bit over the top comment but the text I couldn't ignore. Still didn't quite understand thought he didn't mean anything by it but is over protective of his emotions. Does that mean he didn't mean to imply that he liked me but he's protecting his emotions because he kind of does like me.

Anyway after that I figured he wouldn't be coming over however, he turned up at my doorstep after the race had finished and then Jerkboy decided to leave us to it.

I now couldn't exactly ignore the text and nor did I know how to respond. I basically said look New Guy I am a really friendly person at times and I will invite you places and I am really enjoying getting to know you but I'm not in a rush to jump straight into a relationship.

Now I feel like I've given off the mixed signals.

However, I think for the first time since this all began the mixed signals are fairly clear, he is interested he's just scared and I kind of know exactly how that feels. So I guess maybe it's time to just put the brakes on and let it happen at it's own pace.

missed call

Last night I looked at my phone and realised I'd had a missed call from New Guy. Clearly I thought he must be ringing about tomorrow. So, I call him back.

Gretta: Hi

New Guy: Hi, I called because I was in the supermarket and I just wondered if you wanted me to pick some stuff up for the picnic tomorrow.

Gretta: Oh don't worry about that the guys know to bring their own picnic don't they.

New Guy: Yeah, but I wasn't meaning for the guys, anyway it doesn't matter I'm not in the supermarket now.

Gretta: ok

New Guy: I'd love to chat but I've got friends here so have to go.

Gretta: ok bye.

It was weird, so he was in the supermarket and thinking "I'll see if Gretta wants me to get anything for her" that's surely what he was implying right? So, a guy doesn't think of a girl and getting her something unless they are interested or was he just unbelievably nice. I'm not used to guys being unbelievably nice.

And just when I'd accepted it

New Guy sends an email asking if I'd be up for a walk on Saturday with him and some of the guys from the pub.

So, looks like I'll be spending the afternoon with New Guy and co tomorrow....

No more New Guy.

I'm pretty convinced that New Guy isn't interested. I guess I've gone into friend zone. It's just been taking too long and even when I hint he doesn't pick up on it and not only that but he seems uninterested. I feel kind of sad, like I was kind of looking forward to something, but I'm pretty sure the something I had in mind is just not gona happen. Maybe he's not over his ex, maybe he's not into me, either way, both aren't good.

UUUgggg Men!

So New Guy text me yesterday to say that he'd be up the pub at about 6.30pm last night, that he was back from his weekend away and up for catching up for a bit. The guys were there anyway, so I headed up. He left early because he was knackered after being at a stag do all weekend.

I felt that might be him not interested. However, I received an email today from him apologising for being so lame just that he really was ridiculously tired.

JerkBoy is convinced he's interested. I'm just not so sure if he's interested enough to actually ask me out on a date. I kind of want him to but I think he's captain slow. Ooooh maybe that should be his name instead of New Guy.

Anyways, not that this is an issue, but kind of have another guy potential. You see I met a guy on a dating site when I had a 5 day free trial back a good few months ago now. I never thought it would come to anything, he lives in London which is miles away.

However, we've been ringing each other regularly and texting quite a bit and before I went to Cyprus he suggested meeting up. Anyway he's text me saying he's free tomorrow evening for a phone conversation and I know during the phone conversation he's going to want to arrange a time for a visit. JerkBoy thinks I should just go for it, and old Gretta would have, but I kind of was hoping that New Guy would have made a bit more of a move by now and I don't know what to do, I actually don't want to lead this other guy on to be honest he's not really my type I see him more as a friend, but on the other hand I like to keep my options open and New Guy is being ridiculously slow.

Sunsets and New Guy

So, I'm back from my holiday. Ended up sharing a room with JerkBoy - turns out JerkBoy chats in his sleep. During his sleep he told me to shut the fuck up. It was very funny although due to his chitter chatter I didn't sleep too well.The sunset in Cyprus was pretty impressive ey?

Anyways, I got home to an email from New Guy and we had an email conversation today. Which was good. He let me know that he's not going to be about for a bit though, he going to a stag doo this weekend, and next weekend he's meeting up with some friends from the city he used to live. The following weekend we've arranged to go on a walk with some of the guys, and as he's really into photography I've asked him for some photography tips and he's told me to bring my camera on the walk. So, I'll hopefully get some time with him then but truth is even though I'm feeling more confident that he is at least a little interested in me it seems to be a ridiculously long process and I'm not into waiting. I know good things are suppose to come to those who wait, but truth is I just want us to get on with things, and with me being away and now him being away it just feels like such a large gap between that walk we had before I went away until next time we catch up. I hope he doesn't meet anyone in the meantime, I hope I don't too. The more I get to know New Guy the more I like.