When CD gets CRANKY I get insecure!!!

So, last night CD was extremely tired. I understand why he was tired. Saturday we'd spent the day walking in a forest which was about an hours drive away. Sunday he cooked a roast for me and 3 of our friends, then after lunch we had to go and voluteer giving food to the homeless which is a project he's been involved in for some time, that I used to go with him to until we broke up. Anyway it was the last time that project would run as the charity couldn't fund it anymore, so we went to that, then we had to pop round a couple that CD knows house as he's thinking of renting out his property and moving into his friends as it works out better financially in this day of the credit crunch and then we had to meet up with a group of friends at the local to discuss a week away we have coming up in April.

So all in all our weekend was absolutely manic, and then CD had a sleepless night because he claims he was so tired he couldn't sleep! This meant last night he was one grumpy boy, getting funny about how there isn't any spontaneity in our relationship as time together is always planned. Well you see, time together this week has had to be planned. I have a work meeting on Wednesday night, and I have a work meeting on Thursday night, CD is working a night shift on Thursday night, and going away on a family weekend on Friday. So the only free evening we have this week was last night - which he was cranky on and tonight where we've planned to go to the cinema to watch "he's just not that into you".

I know he was tired and he understands that this week had to be planned, I understand that the flexibility to spontaneous would be great, but when you're juggling bizarre working hours, that's just not always possible. He's scared we'll lose passion like last time - this causes me to be a little insecure. He did promise me he was just tired and that he wasn't having second thoughts, that he understands this week is a busy week, but I dunno when you're juggling late shifts and night shifts, you surely have to be a little bit planned - otherwise how does it work?!

Anyway, I'm very much so looking forward to the cinema tonight and he's text me to tell me he had a good night's sleep, so that's reassuring.

Marking my territory (apparently!).

Things with CD are going fantastically, we've been back together for 4 weeks and if you take out of the equation my 1 very insecure, freaky out moment, then things have been so good.

I was at CDs yesterday and we were chatting and he told me not in a bad way in a flirty conversation kind of way that he thought I was territorial. I asked him why and this was his response (it made me laugh)

"So far, since we've been back together, you have left a pair of earring by my bed, stolen at least 2 pairs of my socks, and left a pair of your knickers in my living room - I can view this as only one way"

The knickers were an accident - they fell out of my overnight bag and I hadn't realised, in fact the earrings were also an accident and I returned the socks that evening. I'm not convinced I'm territorial, I would say I'm more likely a forgetful clutz.

V Day!

CD has gone off climbing for the weekend, leaving me alone on Valentine's day!!! Cheeky skamp. However, we just moved valentine's day forward and celebrated it on Thursday night.

He took me to a Lebenese restaurant in the upmarket part of our city, it was lovely, and expensive and I didn't have to pay :>

I drank far too much wine, but it was just a great fun night.

He bought me a sparkily necklace, nothing too expensive, the sort you'd find in a popular high street store. I bought him a dvd, a photoframe with a pic of us in it, some boxers with hearts on and a bar of white chocolate - which in my opinion isn't actually chocolate but for some reasont he boy loves white chocolate! It's very disappointing.

And now he's left me, but I look forward to his return on Monday, his arms are always that bit more toned after he's been away climbing, and I lust his arms.

That's my boy

No wonder I struggle resisting him!!!

I'm snowed in..

This isn't a bad thing in the slightest...

And...

It's sooooooooooo pretty!

Picture taken by my dad

Hot and Cold!

So, Saturday we decided that we'd give things another go.

Well...

Things have been great, it feels very different from last time round, I feel like I'm a priority, I feel like he's more into me, there is a lot more laughing and not so much seriousness.

If things remain this way, then this could be pretty darn good.

Still taking things slow. I've only told Best Friend who thinks I'm settling and hopes he has changed.

But I don't feel as if I'm settling and I'm giving him a second chance and currently it's worth the risk.

Guess we'll wait and see if things get colder!