Very Attractive Single Female!!!

I met up with The X Monday. The X is the guy well before CD and The X is married and happily married.

He's a teacher and was on half term, he was visiting his family in my city and asked me out to lunch. Perfect I thought. You see me and The X were always the best of friends, then we had an on off relationship for 3 years where he cheated on me twice - yeah nice!!! But then an incident happened which caused him to apologise for all the hurt caused and we both decided that we shouldn't let 3 years that started when we were just teens ruin what was up until then a perfectly sound friendship. So when I was about 22 we went back to being friends and we've just friends ever since.

On Monday he told me his Mrs was unhappy about him having lunch with me because of our history but he won't let her insecurities stop him

Gretta: You do realise we've had lunch together heaps - when she was girlfriend, when you were engaged and since you've been married?

The X: Yeah I know she's always been funny about it but what can I do. I'm not going to wreck our friendship again not after before.

And that was that I kind of have a lot of respect for him. I actually get on really well with his Mrs so I find it sad that she gets insecure about me but when The X said this to me I couldn't help but feel slightly flattered.

The X: Gretta come on you're a very attractive, single female who I once dated. Think about it. You'd probably be a bit jealous too if it was the other way round.

I'm a very attractive, single female....... *blush*

I bit my tongue realising that saying something like "yeah but that didn't stop you cheating on me twice" probably wouldn't be wise. Let me just focus on the very attractive single female bit!!!

Online Dating Dilemma

As you know I've had pretty much next to no luck on the online dating thing....

There was a short ginger guy that I went on one date with and it was a complete disaster.

There's the well handsome pilot who knows he's handsome and threatened to visit my city but hasn't yet. I still talk to him on chat but we've been chatting since July and nothing has actually come of it apart from I think we might be online friends of some sort which is a bit odd.

Then there was the Doctor from the UK Coast who was going to visit during Christmas break but got stuck in the snow. His facebook status has just turned to "in a relationship".

Well, there is one other guy who emailed me a fair bit and I want to call him Biker. Biker is into motorsport and I like motorsport so this sits well with me. Biker isn't great looking but nor is he unattractive, he's got dark hair - he calls it brown I would call it dark ginger but the colour suits him he carries it well in all his pics. He's tall and thin, not the muscular type that I usually go for. The thing I like the most about Biker is his humour we've been chatting on msn now for about 3 weeks and everytime I come away with a smile on my face and he's me laugh in some way. I can tell that he's feeling the same he kind of eases me into the conversation and I find myself wanting to say nice things to him in the same way he says nice things to me. It feels nice, it makes me feel nice.

There's one massive problem with Biker, one that I think it too big to get over, but one I'm choosing to ignore while I'm enjoying talking to him so much and the one problem I know will prevent me at some point to taking this further and probably the one thing that will stop him.....

He lives in New Zealand!

Teddy no time!

And then Teddy replied

"Gretta completely forgot I'm snowed under this weekend so no way I can skype".

It's the first time I've felt completely let down by Teddy, actually it's not the first time but usually when we plan to Skype he skypes.

I am pissed off to the extreme right now.

Teddy times!

So Teddy and I really need to sort out Barcelona the fact being whether or not I'm going to meet him there and whether or not I can talk his cute but into actually booking something.

He promised me a Skype this weekend to talk things through, so I've just emailed him the most likely times I'll be online this weekend and how likely it is that his times coincide with mine.

I can't wait to catch up with him part of me wants to do my hair and make-up specially. To look unbelievably gorgeous and to seduce him into agreeing to get some things booked in so we can actually meet each other in Barcelona.

So so so so so want to create some more sweeet sweet sweet memories with this guy. So do!

Liar Liar

With online dating it seems at some point someone is going to lie on their profile.

There was this guy that I thought was lovely looking, his profile read well, we seemed to have a few things in common and under his occupation he'd put "services" this means the army, royal navy or RAF.

So when I said which are you in? He replied and said "RETAIL".

Right. Now I have no problem with dating a guy in retail none whatsoever but I do have a problem with a guy who things "services" means "retail"

Back to searching the site for someone who actually tells the truth. I somehow doubt I'm gona find my Mr Right on an online dating site. I want my Mr Right to at least try to be honest with me.

The Arms and New Guy = The one I want and the one I really don't want!

Remember The Arms

Well, me and The Arms are still in contact we probably instant message each other twice or three times a week.

Last night we had a lovely conversation that I just didn't want to end but due to his job as a pilot a hunky stud of a pilot with great arms he had to get up at 3.30am and therefore go to bed. Wish I was in his bed and wish he was in my city and wish we would go on a date.

Right back to the point Gretta. Yes he's lovely, great conversation, hunk, but still yet to meet for real.

Oh and remember New Guy

Well, things between us fizzled out his cockyness began to irratate me. He's actually a really nice guy but I fast began to realise his way was always the right way and if we hung out it was always doing what he wanted and he'd somehow make me feel guilty if I wanted to do something else.

The other week he invited me for a walk in the country, one I really didn't want to go on because I knew it meant I'd end up having to spend 3 hours in conversation with him listening to his bouts of cockyness.

Then..... I made up an excuse not to go, it was actually true a good friend of mine had a row with her fiance and they were thinking about calling off the engagement, friend was in bit I had to cancel going on the walk which was quite a relief and said we'd catch up another time.

Then he rang me about 3 weeks ago

New Guy: Gretta when are you free for that catch up?

Gretta: Um let me get my diary - ah I'm not free until the 11th Feb

New Guy: That's ages away but ok the 11th Feb will do - what do you want to do?

Gretta: Cinema lets go to the cinema *thinking to myself we don't have to talk if we're watching a film*

New Guy: Really? but that means we wont really get to catch up.

Gretta: I really fancy the cinema we could go for a drink after (oh Gretta why a drink after)

New Guy: Ok cool cinema it is.

He just rang my office to confirm. I was shocked

Gretta: why are you ringing my office and not my mobile and how did you get my office number?

New Guy: I tried your mobile you didn't answer so I looked up your company on the net and rang your office. Just wanted to double check Friday night.

Gretta: Yep all good

New Guy: I was thinking we could go for food first so we could catch up?

Gretta: Trouble with food before the movie is we risk missing the movie and food after the movie will be too late really so why don't we eat before and I'll pick you up on the way to the cinema

New Guy: It's just we're not gona get chance to catch up.

Gretta: We we'll go for a drink after.

He's still making me feel unbelievably awkward. I'm guessing he's well and truly over his ex now and wants to get close to me again but I've moved on from him now. If anything he's beginning to really get on my nerves and the less time spent with him the better.

Pot calling kettle black!!!!

In my job sometimes my superiors make me do their dirty work.

Often this works out well because 'I'm just the messenger' and can use that line and then say "if you need to discuss further than we can book you in an appointment with the person the message came from" often people are too lazy to do so and just let it drop.

Today I had to pass on a message to an ex superior who has been kind of 'demoted' but by choice. The message was from the superior that took that person's place and the message was a kind of sort it out or we'll have to change aspects of your work.

Not a good message to have to deliver but a message that person has asked me to deliver to other people several times before. The message pretty much the same the reaction very different. Oh the reaction, guess it's really not nice being on the receiving end of that message.

Pot calling the kettle black - most certainly.

It's going to be interesting in the office over the next few days, I'm just waiting for the blow up.

Not to email.

Today has been a good day.

Why?

Because yesterday when I replied to Teddy's email I closed down the on going email conversation.

I'd ask him a question, he'd ask me a question and it's been like a once a day email instant message pretty much every day since Christmas - bar the fact that it's not instant and not necessarily everyday. I'm getting annoyed at myself because I find myself hoping that his reply to the email the day before would turn up in my inbox and look at my inbox an awful amount during my day in hope.

Today I've had no reason to check my inbox because I didn't send him anything that needed a reply and I just checked my email for the second time today and no reply.

Now I'm having a few days break, I'm quite glad that I haven't been obsessing like a teenager today.

Will he notice I've gone? Who knows!

Teddy makes me smile!

Sometimes all I need is an email from Teddy to put a smile on my face :)

The truth of the matter....

I think JerkBoy is struggling a bit with his new relationship and maybe I'm not helping matters. I've distanced myself big time and I actually like the girl much more than any of his previous endeavours.

These are the 3 things that have caused me concern.

Jerkboy turns up at my place

Gretta: wow you're wearing my favourite shirt and the aftershave I bought you last Christmas.

Jerkboy: It's all for you Gretta, it's always all for you.

Gretta: you're such a charmer.

a bit later he goes on to tell me about this situation

Jerkboy: The other day I was with my GF and a work colleague and the work colleague sat in the front of my car why the GF had to sit in the back. I ended up having a massive row with the work colleague over her behaviour.

Later that same evening

I sit in the front of JerkBoys car when we go to pick up his GF when we get to her place I sit in the back

Jerkboy: No Gretta you don't have to sit in the back.

Gretta: I think I do.

Jerkboy: No I didn't mean you. Seriously you didn't have to get in the back.

Then today, finally he's accepted his GFs request so that they're now officially in a relationship on facebook. I sent Jerkboy a text

"I'm so proud of you".

His reply

"Gretta you know I did it for you and not the GF".

The thing is I have moaned at him that she'll feel like he can't commit to her if he doesn't accept it and that I think he should accept it and yaddy yaddy yaddy. It really wouldn't surprise me if he actually did do it for me.

I know Jerkboy and I have a deep friendship but we need to make sure that friendship doesn't affect our relationships and I'm trying my hardest here to make sure he does the right thing by his GF and not the right thing by me.

Ahh well, I guess Jerkboy in a 'serious' relationship was never going to be easy after the friendship we've had.

The wreckish

I think I've lost all cool and turned into one of those desperados that don't know how to play the game properly.

Everything was going well.

Teddy and I have been in email conversations since Christmas with just the occasional few day break. This bided well with his travel plans in May.

Then I think it all went to pot when he told me he was putting the feeders out for work and I asked him how that will affect his travel plans. You see I want him to come on holiday with me and I somehow think that's not going to happen now and I definitely think my disappointedness showed via email.

I don't know I felt him drift slightly over the last few days. Don't get me wrong he's still emailing but his breaks are getting longer and his emails are getting shorter. I guess now it's time to kick in the "I don't give a shit" mentality but it's hard to do when I really do give a rather large shit.