Me and me alone.

I've had quite a long chat with Flatmate this morning. It wasn't my plan too. I found out he was away this weekend with Gifty, so me trying to avoid him all weekend was pointless coz he was away with his girlfriend anyway. I actually think he arranged a weekend with her to avoid me tho so that to me makes it quite funny that we were purposely both making our weekends busy.

The chat was surprising quite good, we just started having fun together, and not naughty fun, but we were playing an online game together, and I made him listen to the same radio station I was listening to as they do this section called "guess the year" and play songs from that year. So we were just playing games and seeing if this whole "friend" thing will work. I feel quite positive about it as it seemed to go well. There was very little flirting and I mean that, there was a situation taht could have turned into flirting and I stopped it. Like I said I feel quite positive.

I just need to make sure I don't get sucked back in. I know what I'm like - I am just going to keep reminding myself that he has a girlfriend and that's that. The more I think about his girlfriend the more I'll get used to this friend thing, before I just tried to ignore he had a girlfriend and then when I started thinking about her it hurt like hell, if I don't stop thinking about her it will keep me aware that I am not the only girl in his life and I need a guy who will have me and me alone. I deserve nothing but the best and Flatmate is clearly not that.