There's something I've not told you guys

Before I went into hospital I spoke to Flatmate online, I wanted to talk to him before going into hospital and it was the first time we'd chatted in ages. I guess I shouldn't have and I know all of my interaction seems to be online these days, I really should get out more!

Anyway, we talked for quite a while and he told me that he thought that I was trouble, he thought that if it hadn't been for me he wouldn't have cheated on Gifty. I told him that I thought that wasn't the truth at all, that I'd tried many a time to steer him in a different direction. I reminded him how I don't even know where he lives and that if he wanted it he had to come here, I didn't force him to turn up. He asked me if I still think about it and if I really think that it's over between us. I told him that

"I'd like us to be friends, but I think what we did previously was wrong and I don't want us to go back there. I can't say that we never will because if temptation came then it might be a little harder than just saying no but I'd like to think we were strong enough to be able to be mates without ripping each other's clothes off." I then asked if he'd thought about it and he said

"no I've not thought about it. However I do think you're trouble, but I like trouble"

I said goodnight and logged off at this point, for many reasons

1. I didn't appreciate being called trouble.

2. I didn't like where the conversation was going.

3. Something felt wrong

4. I wasn't liking him at that moment in time.

A few days later is when this happened now I look back I feel like maybe some of it slipped out because he's riled me so much that I wanted to be that trouble he'd suggested I was. He wants me to be trouble - I can be trouble, in the same way I can be sweet, I can be innocent and I can be sexy.

That boy, shouldn't underestimate the power he has left in my hands, because I can let Gifty know, through Tan or through other methods I'm sure, exactly what her boyfriend has been up to. Now of course I don't intend to do that but if he wants trouble, he certainly given me the power to be trouble.

Lesson 1. Don't mess with Gretta.

Funniest thing is, I've not heard a peep out of him since that conversation, so maybe he really does only like me when I'm trouble because it seems he can't do "just friends" with me!