Confused.

I can't write about Teddy I just can't. I'm sorry Betty.

I was having a discussion the other day with a friend and she said this....

"Everyday I learn new lessons, and lately I've been learning that you don't necessarily marry the love of your life, some times circumstances and situations mean you miss opportunities and you end up marrying someone else. The doesn't mean you don't love them with all your heart but it still might not be the love of you life, it could just be the love at that time, that you commit too".

I didn't really understand what she meant when she said that. It's definitely been stuck in my head leaving me confused.

However, this week I'm beginning to understand it.

Climber Dude and I seem to be building up quite a friendship now, not a relationship but it feels as if we're setting some king of foundation for something. I'm not at all comfortable with it but it doesn't feel wrong. He's no Teddy, but he's stable. He's planning on going away for 6 months and I think I may miss him during that time.

I'm not saying I'm gona end up marrying Climber Dude, but what I am saying is that I can't be with Teddy, and maybe who I'm with isn't going to be the love of my life, but they'll be right for that time.

I'm chatting utter shit aren't I?