If only I could control my emotions.

I just feel so isolated at the moment. Jerk boy contacts me daily and although I love him contacting me whether it be via text, or email, or in person - he turned up at work yesterday as he uses are facilities for his band to rehearse. I just can't help but feel that seeing him and hearing from him so frequently is bad for me. I know he's a Jerk and will never like me but every day I feel myself getting dragged back and drawn to him.

I was upset about something today and cried a little the only person I wanted to comfort me was him and yes he's my friend and we have a very close friendship but I know it can't be anything more. Yet even after all this time I still find that I want more.