Missing me?

It's not that I blame him, but I feel it's his fault. You see I feel like I'm a twenty something going on 60 something. CD has got himself an allotment at his work and once he's cleared the brambles we're going to start growing veges. As sweet as that sounds, I haven't been clubbing in months, I have no disasterous dating stories to tell me married (acting older than their age) friends, and I feel like Gretta is losing... Gretta.

Don't get me wrong I've done a lot of things wrong, I'm the girl that caused someone else's man to cheat on them, I'm the one that craved attention so much I would pretty much do anything to get it, I'm the one that always got it on with randoms at weddings, and I'm the one that always seemed to date a moron or 3.

CD is a fabulous man, he takes care of me, he looks after me, he's wonderful. But is he changing me or am I just changing.

The sad thing is I'm looking forward to the journey of growing our own veges, and I'm looking forward to cooking them. Just part of me misses being that little bit wild but the other part of me thinks it feels right to settle.

I dunno I just miss naughty Gretta but also like settled Gretta. It's a weird kind of limbo place to be. tis all.