Down down down
I have been feeling extremely down of late. It's not CDs fault or anything to do with him, however, my down state seems to effect us in someway.
You see, work has been slightly insane, mid some changes, my boss got really ill causing him to be out for 6 weeks sick. He's rarely sick this is fair enough, however, it's meant I've felt the pressure of the business on my shoulders, I'm the one that knows how everything runs even if I don't run it myself!!!
So, one of our staff has been running this project but he hasn't got enough people on board with his idea, and his superiors have been telling him to drop the project but he refuses because he says even without people power it's successful! He's the only one that thinks that. He's also threatening to quit if we pull the project. Problem is he's a key worker and someone who has generally really moved the business forward, we all really value his in put, it's just this time we all think he needs to pull the project.
It's a harsh situation and it's causing the work environment to be slightly bleak to say the least, if that's not enough the finance lady who I work alongside the most is also suffering from depression so every other day I get to listen to her whinge and moan about everything. I know depression is nasty but it doesn't half rub off on me.
Anyway, last night I went round a friends house for dinner with CD, they're more his friends than mine but they're turning into our friends if that makes sense, and he decides to tell them about the fact that when I get in from work I like to sit down and watch Neighbours to unwind. Yes Neighbours is shit, I know! But it's great to unwind too... However, even tho he was joking with them about my soap addiction, it offended me because what he forgets to tell them is while I watch Neighbours I cook him dinner at the same time. Yes just tell them the bad, don't tell them the good CD. I know he was joking but he also knows I'm having a crap time at work.
So anyway, a client today gave me a bunch of flowers, not a member of staff, not a fellow employee but a client, gave me a bunch of flowers to thank me for doing such a great job. You have no idea how much I needed it. No idea.
However, then it did remind me of something, CD and I have been back together for almost 12 weeks and still he hasn't bought me a bunch of flowers.
Tell me why? Every girl loves flowers - it's just common sense! So somehow again I ended up offended about the fact that I haven't received any flowers from CD. Ridiculous. Yes. Am I suffering from depression? I'm beginning to wonder.
What I can tell you is I can't wait for my boss to return because I will willing put the strain of trying to run this company back on his shoulders, but I'll appreciate him that little bit more - that is one thing for sure.
I swear I need one big hefty pay rise - IF ONLY!
You see, work has been slightly insane, mid some changes, my boss got really ill causing him to be out for 6 weeks sick. He's rarely sick this is fair enough, however, it's meant I've felt the pressure of the business on my shoulders, I'm the one that knows how everything runs even if I don't run it myself!!!
So, one of our staff has been running this project but he hasn't got enough people on board with his idea, and his superiors have been telling him to drop the project but he refuses because he says even without people power it's successful! He's the only one that thinks that. He's also threatening to quit if we pull the project. Problem is he's a key worker and someone who has generally really moved the business forward, we all really value his in put, it's just this time we all think he needs to pull the project.
It's a harsh situation and it's causing the work environment to be slightly bleak to say the least, if that's not enough the finance lady who I work alongside the most is also suffering from depression so every other day I get to listen to her whinge and moan about everything. I know depression is nasty but it doesn't half rub off on me.
Anyway, last night I went round a friends house for dinner with CD, they're more his friends than mine but they're turning into our friends if that makes sense, and he decides to tell them about the fact that when I get in from work I like to sit down and watch Neighbours to unwind. Yes Neighbours is shit, I know! But it's great to unwind too... However, even tho he was joking with them about my soap addiction, it offended me because what he forgets to tell them is while I watch Neighbours I cook him dinner at the same time. Yes just tell them the bad, don't tell them the good CD. I know he was joking but he also knows I'm having a crap time at work.
So anyway, a client today gave me a bunch of flowers, not a member of staff, not a fellow employee but a client, gave me a bunch of flowers to thank me for doing such a great job. You have no idea how much I needed it. No idea.
However, then it did remind me of something, CD and I have been back together for almost 12 weeks and still he hasn't bought me a bunch of flowers.
Tell me why? Every girl loves flowers - it's just common sense! So somehow again I ended up offended about the fact that I haven't received any flowers from CD. Ridiculous. Yes. Am I suffering from depression? I'm beginning to wonder.
What I can tell you is I can't wait for my boss to return because I will willing put the strain of trying to run this company back on his shoulders, but I'll appreciate him that little bit more - that is one thing for sure.
I swear I need one big hefty pay rise - IF ONLY!
posted by Gretta James at 6:48 AM
2 Comments:
neighbours, eh? tisk, tisk.
well, at least they got rid of that awful harold. (never watched an episode, me. though i did sabotage them filming an episode at the local beach. quite an achievement i think.)
Fingers crossed it's not depression, likely you're just feeling a bit depressed. There's so much bad news at the moment, life is tough and now we're all going to die of swine flu?! I thnk it's having an effect on all of us.
I just try and think of all the things I DO have. Like friends and family who I love!
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