Why does it hurt so bad.

I found out this evening that Jerk boy likes a friend of mine. She's stunning so it doesn't surprise me. It's just before everything happened between me and him he asked her out and she'd turned him down. Apparently he still likes her. It hurts.

I've been so foolish because it hurts I have started flirting with someone else. He's actually a really great guy but I fear that the only reason I am flirting with him is because of Jerk guy and I can't stop myself he gives me confidence and I need that.

It hurts and I am mad, but not at Jerk boy. I'm mad at myself. Grrrrrrrrr I wish I was over him.